After many years of fighting tooth and nail, years of denial, trying to get and stay sober on my own, trying to convince myself that it would be different this time, I was given a moment of clarity to see myself as I truly was. I saw the reality of my addiction, I saw the damage that I was causing, I suddenly understood that the problems I drank about were not outside me – the problem was me – and that the change that was needed had to be me.
I was floored, I was beaten. And so, as to not leave my family the sad legacy of a dead alcoholic, I sought treatment. When I got on the plane to go, I had no real hope. I felt I could not be happy if I could not drink and knew that I could not be happy if I did. I felt damned. My life was in chaos and made no sense to me. I could not understand how this had happened.
My family and I had left the ranch twice, never to return, but we kept coming back. Something gnawed at me that this ranch had purpose and meaning that was yet unfulfilled.
I went to treatment. The lights began to turn on. I began to wake up. This was a great centre and experience, but something was missing and I knew that this “something” was in great abundance at the ranch. With time, I understood why my life had turned out as it did, in the necessary sequence in which it had unfolded. I knew with absolute certainty that the purpose and meaning of Top of the Word Ranch was intertwined with my own. I knew what I needed to do and why I needed to do it. It felt predestined, it felt certain, and it still does. Top of the World Ranch Treatment Centre exists because it was meant to. It works because it is meant to.
The Ranch as it is now is what it always needed to be. The people who work here understand this. The clients who come here understand this. There is no other centre like it. I have since obtained a Master of Counselling degree so that I may further help our clients because, you see, the real beauty of recovery is that by giving to others, we get more than we give in return.
I hope you choose us with the knowledge that we will offer you our best.